Everyone experiences low self-esteem at some point in their lives, mainly during the phase of adolescence. Suddenly your whole body starts to change and develop, and sexual impulses are born. It’s when you start contemplating your body obsessively after a shower, after you’ve masturbated and you wonder, “Do I look good?”, “Am I desirable?”, “Would anyone want to have sex with me?”
When the feeling of low self-worth transitions into adulthood, the situation becomes a cause for concern. It feels like we’re stuck with it which makes us unable to accept ourselves. We feel insecure no matter where we go. Imagine being stuck in a body you don’t approve of. It makes you want to rip your skin off and free yourself. We live in a world so messed up about looks it makes you want to go crazy. We’re pushed to fit a given mold of beauty, one that’s extremely hard to keep up with. The only thing kicking out the negativity I have towards myself is through the people who are attracted to me. Being validated by someone seems unnecessary to some, but there’s no denying that it makes us feel good. I’ve slept with plenty of attractive people and others even paid me for it. That must mean something.
At the end of the day, it’s all about how we perceive ourselves, though. No matter how many beautiful individuals we manage to attract to us, we still have a lot of work to do on ourselves to accept and be comfortable with who we are. And it’s not always easy. Some days, I wake up and feel good about myself while others I just can’t help but see the flaws. Days like these are hard to go through since the amount of attention I put on everything that’s wrong with me makes getting out of bed seem like a challenge.
Felix Eberstark 