I’m too afraid to show the people around me who I really am because if I do, I’m afraid they might not like it. And that’s all I got.
It’s no surprise to me that hardly anyone tells the truth about who they are and how they feel. The smart ones keep to themselves for good reason. Why would you tell anyone anything that’s dear to you? Because when they end up leaving or pushing you away, you end up feeling vulnerable and totally exposed.
As much as it hurts not to speak about our emotions and worries, it’s safer not to. I’m really good at hiding how I truly feel, and that’s what I do. It’s funny, though, because I feel like I’m sinking and no one seems to notice. I don’t know how to survive adolescence. Sometimes I think I never will.
Felix Eberstark 